It seems to be a trend in my life to move frequently. I have blogged before about how I have moved 5 times since I graduated from college and by the end of this summer it'll be seven.
Seven times in 2 years!
There are times that I love the wandering lifestyle. I have made many great friends along the way and have experienced things that I wouldn't trade for the world. The Lord has led me out into the desert and has drawn me back to himself. It has been good--very good.
But also very exhausting.
I am tired of moving. I absolutely HATE packing and I hate even more saying goodbye to people. I have been told that when I make a friend I make them my instant best friend. I am all in. This is a quality that I like because I really have some deep friendships, but I hate because I continue to have to tell them goodbye. It is so hard.
And although this is a good move I still find myself asking the Lord why. Why do I have to move again?? Why do I have to say goodbye? Why? Why? Why?
He continues to say, "Just follow Me. I have never let you down. Why would I start now? I will take care of you."
So alas...here I go again. I am currently sitting at my desk on my last day of school (a workday for teachers--no children) with nothing to do because I am not coming back here next year. My car is packed to the brim (literally) and my bikes are loaded on the top--yes I am scared to death to drive 7 hours with them on top of my car without Sarah in case of a crisis again! I am going to make the drive to Lafayette for the summer to plan our wedding and then will move to Boone, NC at the beginning of August. I did get a teaching job (PTL) in Lenoir, NC teaching physical science and physics to juniors and seniors which is a HUGE blessing as well as a huge load off my back.
I am ready to be somewhere for a while. I am ready to really settle. To nest. I always thought I was the wandering type, but I think I am ready for a break. I am ready to be somewhere and not have in the back of my mind when I am going to move or where I am going to get a job next. I would LOVE to teach at this school for at least two years. But I am going to continue to follow Him (along with Joe's leadership) wherever He takes us (at least I pray that I will).
So, to all of my DFW friends--I love you and I will miss you terribly. You guys have been so consistent with me even though I have been all over the place. Thank you for your friendship. I hate that some friendships are just for a season, but that just the way it goes, right? We will stay in touch--I promise.
Much Love, CB
Friday, June 6, 2008
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