I am a restless person. Resting is so hard for me. I am always looking for the next adventure.
Looking for the next rush.
I have never had a job for over a year. Since I graduated high school, I have moved 8 times.
Eight.
Are you kidding me. My parents have only moved twice. And they have been married for over 30 years.
I should get a prize for that.
I am a wanderer. A dabbler. I leave at the peak of my stay so that I don't overstay my welcome.
I guess my heart just yearns for something more--so I just move on. And I leave everything else--and everyone else--behind.
Don't get me wrong, I have great friends all over the country and stay in great contact with most of them. But as for me--I leave. I move on to what I think are bigger and better things.
And so the cycle continues.
I mean, I just started my teaching job (yes, I got a teaching job in Irving teaching Chemistry and IPC) and on my first day I was already thinking about what I could do next year instead of teaching at this school. What is my problem?
But, what if this whole time, the thing that I have needed most is rest?
And, maybe I just have that nature about me. Maybe I will be a wanderer for the rest of my life. (Although I hope not, because the idea of being "settled" sounds so great!) Maybe I will, though, always feel the call to move to a new place.
But what I need to learn is how to rest while I am wherever I am. I need to be all here. This is something that I have known for a long time, but have to be reminded of.
My new teaching job is very stressful and overwhelming so I am very busy, but I am learning how to be all there. I am learning how to be completely content with THIS job, in THIS city, with THESE people. Although I am very busy, I feel very rested. Very stable. Very content.
We'll see how long THIS will last!!!
